Monday, May 05, 2008

...... Heather puts on this show.... an All-age show.... and its maximum capacity plus. Since when has there been a All-Age punk show that was maximum capacity? That is a question.
Now I love punk and have been going to punk shows for some years now.... But this show the tables turned on me. I drove my little daughter and my son to this show... I just felt old and confused. All-Ager
I was into punk because i was angry with the way i was brought up, the way the mainstream was, and inside my head it was just pissed off and "ARGHHH FUCK". Inside my head, The Dayglos where a perfect part of the soundtrack.
Now i drop off my kids to this All Ager chaulked full of punks who want to slam dance... or MOSH as they call it today. It's sold out and this is what the kids want to see.... "Alcohlic White Trash", "Lesbien Fist Magnet", and "Dayglo Abortions".... Not "Sober Feel Good about yourself white People", "Gay Women Helping Hand" and "Sunshine Have a Baby"...
I drive back home and sit on the porch and assess this punk rock thing that has been such a big part of my life.
I'm Thinking too much and basically because I no longer run to the govenment regulated fire water store to slow down the mix master of thoughts that go on in my head. hey if the government thinks its fine to sell booze that causes many of fight and DEATH than why aren't they regulating and selling that fuckin WEED i saw some kids out-side the show doing. I know not all the punks at that show wanted to get wasted but i sure did back when i was a punk in the eighties.
I sat on my porch and thought too much, instead of beeing with my kids at the show.... What kind of father lets thier kids go to a show like that. My father was not around when i was a kid and the step father just made me feel how some punk music feels. "Lets beat beat beat the shit out of the little fuckers"
I remeber back twenty-five years ago the parents of my little brothers friends coming into that same hall and taking thier sons out of a punk show. I think the Dayglos played that show also and maybe it was Casteration Anxiety, No Exit and the Gents of Horror on the bill. It was a great show and I think Jesus Bonehead might have even played nude at that show.... I just love a nude man on stage.
Anyway as i sit and think too much about my 41 years on this planet and the punk and mess i have been around... i jumped in my car and went back to the show to make sure my kids where safe. I arrive and I stood on the side with my friend who is a highschool teacher and watch my little daughter who i love soooo much scoot around and have fun dancing with her friends. My son who i aslo lovve sooo much is also in the mix haveing a good time also... Murray belts out the songs that he wrote 25 years ago and they stand the test of time.
It's punk and although it meant alot of anger inside for me, I realize it doesn't mean alot of anger for others..... i guess.
just do whatever makes you happy, life is tooo short. People love evil... smoke a joint and have another beer. Or be sober and breath clean air just LOVE your friends and family or "Kill MOMMY WITH YOUR AUTOMATIC"
My kids where safe and had fun! Thanks agin Heather for puttin out great alternative music shows with 7 foot doormen with pentagrams tattooed on the back of thier necks. God loves you....
somebody please admit me for mental assessment.
cheers and love -ricky JaK